Words of Encouragement to Self and All

I have to admit that I haven't always been pleasant to be around. Especially my boyfriend. From the few weeks before my doctors visit in April 21st till the week before May 19th, Ive been crazy. Very angry all the time, waking up upset, driving to and from work crying, lots of crying before going into the gym. I hated going to the gym and I didn't want to be there. At the same time I needed to be there. It was love hate. I didn't want to see anyone! Seeing people train in class, for fights, or work out in general was really upsetting. I would sit on the stationary bicycle and just dislike the situation so much. Looking at my knee pissed me off. I wanted to explain to my boyfriend what I was feeling but I couldn't. I still struggle with the words because I feel stupid feeling those things.

So, everyday, don't just do the same routine. After a week or two of doing the routine, change it up. You got to. For me, what kept me going was upper body workouts. For the first 12 weeks, I had the same routine. That drove me crazy! Don't do that. Write out a plan that you can stick to and build up on. I got help from teammates at the gym and they wrote out a 4 day upper body workout and 2 leg day plan. I have stuck to it the last 4 weeks and I feel so much better. Focus on what you can do, make goals, reach them! Make new ones and keep moving.

For me, I am going to be strong as shit for my upper body and core. I want to look strong and lean so doing that also requires eating cleaner. So, I have been eating more meat and veggies. I will get my leg strong again. Its just going to take time and diligence. So, everyday I am either moving closer or away from my goal. I want to fight amateur muay thai this fall. Id love to by November. Thats my goal so I got to reach it and prove to myself that I can do it. I graduate next Spring...or plan to, so i want to get this fight in before 2014 closes. Then I want to compete at WKAs next March and IKF in the summer. Theres too much stuff going on for me to miss another year. So, goals are set and must be reached!

Recap a day after running

So, I still don't have any swelling after the run and single leg jumps. PT is at 8AM. I am ready!

Today, I taught boxing and muay thai classes. My PT wants me to gently use my leg to get it used to the motions of kickboxing. So I am. I was a little scared to demo switch kick but I did it. I will be ok!

Running and single leg jumps

In the middle of week 17:

Ran 10 minutes at PT.
Started off jogging at 4 and by the end of the 10 minutes I was running 5.4 miles per hour.
Good leg can hop 150 vs 75 on the bad leg. Not bad.

Not swollen but sore.

 I feel good!

16 weeks complete...on to week 17

So Im feeling pretty strong right now. I haven't been to PT in 3.5 weeks. But, I have been doing everything I CAN do to build strength in my leg and maintain some kind of conditioning.

To sum up the week, I took it pretty easy on my knee because I wanted to make sure that my knee wasn't swollen for tomorrow. I see the surgeon Monday at 2pm. I hate going to him, because its expensive and he always has bad news....or news I don't want to hear. I don't want to be a pessimist, but I think its important to prepare for bad news rather than go in being hopeful and then leaving disappointed and angry because I can't get closer to training. Last time I went I expected to be told that I could start jogging, single leg jumping, and start squatting with heavy weight. This time around, I do expect to start jogging and jumping. I really do! I am also running tomorrow regardless of what he says. I know I am ready for more! My knee doesn't hurt. On a scale from 0-10, I have 0! No pain.

I do get stiff after sitting for too long still. The transition from sitting for 30 minutes to walking is always uncomfortable, but when I get going, Im fine. If I keep moving, I am fine!

Things I have been doing that makes me happy are bicycle for 10-20mins, upper body weight lifting, and most of all...Padwork! Ive been doing pad work standing for 2 weeks now. We have been doing 5 rounds. Its the only thing that makes me sweat.

Week 15, light at the end of the tunnel

Been working on a different workout to help me get through this month.
Last week I did 2 leg days. Each day was different. I did experience a new kind of soreness as I walked but it went away after a day. This week I am also doing legs 2X, but instead of breaking up the routine in 2 sessions I am just going to do all of the exercises in one session. Ive been doing the bicycle for 10-15 minutes as a warm up.

I have been able to do bag work. I work my hands and defense. I am able to practice shielding kicks...I use my good leg to check and stand on my bad leg. I am also able to lead leg push kick. I can shadow box and throw kicks in the air. Jump rope is getting easier and kicking the soccer ball is fun. Yesterday, I tried kneeing the bag gently...putting my weight on my bad leg. It wasnt too bad...but mentally I was concerned I would ruin my graft. So, for now I will stick to push kicks, punches, and defense.

I dont experience a lot of pain. Its a 1. I do get really stiff if I sit too much. Sitting and then standing is uncomfortable but when I get moving I am fine.

Another thing I can do is hold mitts for others. Boxing only though.

Working on my diet this week is my new thing to develop. Im 133 at the end of the day, so Im going to try to walk around at 130 by the time I see the Dr. again.

Milestones:
Heel touches butt (Week 15)
Boxing (Since week 14: light pivoting, pushing off back leg)
Jump rope (Since week 12)
Kicks and knees to soccer ball (Since week 12)
Push kick on the heavy bag (Week 15)
Holding mitts for students (boxing only) (Week 15)



Today,
Bicycle 10-15 minutes
Leg workout
Ab work
Neck exercises
Heavy bag work 5 rounds-incorporate the elbows
Mitt work 5 rounds
Shadow boxing 3-5 rounds